Scripts of the Revenant

going to work to-day was a little depressing. to help me cope, frankie thankfully decided to keep the early morning routine where i would stop by help finish breakfast and (you should be glad you are not around lucas) drink coffee. though when frankita leaves, that too will end. i suppose i could just try one of their neighbors, maybe they would like to start up a breakfast time.

so long levi- glad you are done in the warehouse. i would have been pissed if you didn't take this opportunity to get yourself closer to where you should be. you'll find something quickly frankie- you will see.


then there is the problem that i have. i have been feeling down lately. it seems that i might not actually be leaving for a new job, the pay here is (supposed) to increase, and it could beat the competition.
plus their is the grad school bit- i want to go, but i am having a very hard time coming up with some 'new' perspective. i want to apply by the end of february, but i dunno if it is possible.
matt is thankfully sending some books.

i believe that i have a problem- reliance. i daresay that i rely not on what is to be relied upon. it came to me last night, when like most nights i didn't sleep, that i am trying to hard to be a self-made man. i seemingly put only so much reliance on God, on whom i should be relying on unconditionally, unswervingly and without question. after such a realization, i am calling myself to a change.

i used to be ever a fan of taking step to some unknown part of my life. yet ever since i move to philly i have been placing myself into tight constricting restraints that do not allow for movement towards an unknown- thus making me less reliant on God who i (should) know will ever take care of me.

here we go.

posted by billiam on 13 February 2006 at Monday, February 13, 2006 | Permalink