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and my turn?

teaming with false ideas
tightly forged arms
wrap around me
forcing my eyes
in one direction




going to work to-day was a little depressing. to help me cope, frankie thankfully decided to keep the early morning routine where i would stop by help finish breakfast and (you should be glad you are not around lucas) drink coffee. though when frankita leaves, that too will end. i suppose i could just try one of their neighbors, maybe they would like to start up a breakfast time.

so long levi- glad you are done in the warehouse. i would have been pissed if you didn't take this opportunity to get yourself closer to where you should be. you'll find something quickly frankie- you will see.


then there is the problem that i have. i have been feeling down lately. it seems that i might not actually be leaving for a new job, the pay here is (supposed) to increase, and it could beat the competition.
plus their is the grad school bit- i want to go, but i am having a very hard time coming up with some 'new' perspective. i want to apply by the end of february, but i dunno if it is possible.
matt is thankfully sending some books.

i believe that i have a problem- reliance. i daresay that i rely not on what is to be relied upon. it came to me last night, when like most nights i didn't sleep, that i am trying to hard to be a self-made man. i seemingly put only so much reliance on God, on whom i should be relying on unconditionally, unswervingly and without question. after such a realization, i am calling myself to a change.

i used to be ever a fan of taking step to some unknown part of my life. yet ever since i move to philly i have been placing myself into tight constricting restraints that do not allow for movement towards an unknown- thus making me less reliant on God who i (should) know will ever take care of me.

here we go.

they give you coffee? oh bloody hell.

we'll miss ya when we move, buddy. thanks for having us over today for lunch. i'll see ya bright in early in the am...all though, i only have generic fruity pebbles to eat. maybe i'll unpack a pan so we can make eggs or pancakes again.

toodles

yes lucas- however, i do not drink it anymore. well, anymore after levi and frankie move.

see ya in the morning. i'm already missing you both right now.

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